The Return of a Long Lost

It's been awhile, I could apologize profusely or simply just try to do better. Last post march 2012. So much is different since then. Here's point form Moved from Canada to Louisiana USA. In the middle of the moving process we found out we would be a family of four and Mac was born January 4th of 2013. I began working as youth director in my church here in rural Louisiana. I could blog for DAYS WEEKS MONTHS on the differences between Louisiana and canada but I wanted this blog post to be about home. Having just returned from Christmas in Canada with lots of snow, family, friends the idea of home is on my mind. People in Canada asked if I was glad to be home. Many of my friends in Louisiana asked if I enjoyed going home for Christmas. the truth is home is a puzzle I have not completely solved yet. I no longer live in Canada although I will always long to be there. I live here in the US. The problem lies that since moving here I've changed and my family and friends have changed in Canada so I don't really belong there anymore. To my Canadian family and friends I'm different. I don't fit in. Here in the US I am in much the same situation. I will always be Canadian in many ways and an outsider. As welcoming and kind as most Americans are I am still not one of them. Of course as many of those who know me would attest I have almost never fit in anywhere and I usually revel in the idea that I am undefinable. A missionary once spoke to our church about how their kids were Canadian but grew up in Africa so they never quite fit in either place. She called them third culture kids. I like that idea. I get to create my own culture without boundaries. It is freeing,it feels like home.