Mar 19, 2012

You Can't Dive Into a Shallow pool


I never thought I would blog so much about weight loss. Mostly because I don't like blogs about weight loss. Or maybe I don't like the comments sections where people argue about the most effective things and do's and don'ts. I have never thought that one way of losing weight is effective for everyone. Some do weight watchers and others do it on their own. I see a trainer/life coach who meets with me and wades through my rationalizations and excuses to the heart of my issues. She knows me really well we grew up together in fact. So she is able to say things to me that others could not.
I confess my weight loss motives have not always been good. Even though the goal of my weight loss is better physical health I confess sometimes I just want to be thinner so I look good. The problem with this feeling is how shallow it is. Because my goal has no depth I am unmotivated and lack the self discipline to really do the hard work required. I mean you can't dive into a shallow pool.
So what can motivate me? What can I do to reach physical health? The answer to this question is so much more complicated it seems. I have to tackle so much more than calories in and calories burnt. I have to deal with my emotional and spiritual health as well.
If I was being honest with you I would say becoming emotionally and spiritually healthy is a much scarier prospect to me than simply going on a diet. But I cannot have purpose in a search for vanity something that fades away so quickly. I cannot simply diet. Then where can I find purpose in this struggle? I have asked myself this question over and over and finally found the answer.
As I have begun to focus on nourishing my body spiritually, changing from being overfed physically and undernourished spiritually I have been reading and rereading my book by Lysa Teurkeust called "Made to Crave; Satisfying Your Deepest Desires With God Not Food" She comes to the conclusion that diets are not enough for lasting change. And says the following.
I am not on a diet I am on a journey with Jesus to learn the fine art of self discipline for the purpose of Holiness.
I cannot find purpose in a baby pool of vanity. If I want to truly change I have to take a journey with Jesus and learn the fine art of self discipline my purpose to dive into the deep end of Holiness.

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