Mea Culpa Plus a Rant

Lately it seems as if lots of my friends have been posting on their status something like this "Jesus died on the cross for me...and I am not ashamed of it...so I am going to leave this on my status for an hour...not many of you will...lets see who else does" Now I am not the kind of person who likes to be critical of how other people would like to live out their faith. Nor do I think that putting this as a status update is bad. In fact I am glad you're "not ashamed" I mean the only things that bother me is the assumption that I am "ashamed"If I don't follow suit and post the very same message for at least an hour.I don't think this is necessarily the litmus test that I am or am not living a Christian Life. I don't think there is a person on my friends list who does not know that I believe in God. That the intervention of Jesus in my life has changed everything. The other thing is I am annoyed by the fact that everything I don't copy and paste the dumb thing I feel GUILTY about it. When many of my status updates talk about God and much of my life is ministry I pass over those posts and feel bad about myself as a Christian. When I really think about it I get over it real quick as it is just a knee jerk reaction but it annoys me whenever I find I am susceptible. I love real posts from people who are experiencing the realness of God. I love it when people talk about their church and the things going on for them. I am just tired of feeling guilty...anyone else?
To rid myself of false feelings of guilt here are 10 things I do for/with God that I am excited about
1. Madi (2 and a half year old tiny dictator) won't go to bed which has been great for my prayer life
2. I love to serve my church in our band I have never been more challenged musically and worshipally (not a word) than I have been at the Pathway
3. By default I am half of the Youth and Young Adult ministry team...never thought I would be doing this again but it is so gratifying to see the hunger of our young people for God
4. I serve on our leadership team (mostly I am comic relief)
5. I love to talk about God with Kyle and now Madi, Jazz and Eli talk with me about God too
6. I got to take a trip to worsley where I was supposed to lead a couple break out groups and teach some people stuff but what truly happened is the worsley women reminded me what life is all about.
7. I think I am a good mom a thoroughly spiritual occupation and a realization of many of my dreams
8. God is teaching me how to forgive (I have certainly not arrived but He is leading me one small yes at a time)
9. Recently I noticed I have a great relationship with my mom. Something I have longed for all my life but my immaturity and stubbornness kept from me for much too long, God IS working in me (slowly)
10. No matter how long it takes me I do eventually return to my true home with Jesus. He is inside me I can never walk away from Him (because you can't walk away from your insides) He reminds me He is so near and eventually I listen.